Monday, September 28, 2009
I guess can't help but just feeling down after several issues.Kept thinking why, why & why can't things just go the way Jon wanted it to be.I know things can nvr always go the way we wish it would be which is why I'm always open to compromise.But things just doesn't goes that way.Really hated in dealing with date & timing nowadays.
I always wanted to attend my last ATC/STC this year as I wanted an memorable ending to my last year of CI-ship but what can I do when the date are set during school days which consist of my studies & the day for my FYP.
As for medical check up,I'm really fine to go with ppl I might not even know.But to have it on a day before my birthday really was a wet blanket to me.
As for tml (28/09/09),by right actually plan for an movie trip with friends long ago.But then it was "Confirmed" being swapped to movies first then having a post birthday celebration for another friend with me been informed of the final plan rather asking for my opinion first.Next I was told again that the movies will be cancel cos someone else watch it already & will only be left for dinner.
Then whats next after I indicate I wont be attending??? The outing will consist of a movies & a dinner now.I not angry just because you all are attending regardless am I there anot cos as what I had say,I'm really fine if you all go without me.But looking through the process & the final outcome it really sadden me if Jon is still a valid person in this friendship.Am I still part of this friendship or am I just a follower who only need to know what the final decision would be??? I really dun know any more.
And the most hurtful part of process was to heard something I wouldn't believe could come from a person whom I trusted & treasure the friendship so much. "If I wan to go,you also cant stop me." I guess thats right.Who is Jonathan to stop you if you really wish to go.I'm just a figurehead guy who is there for the sake of having a need for it.Nothing else!!!
How slow can I be in realising this fact now???
Sorry for the naggy rant ppl..Just dun care abt me cos it doesn't make any difference to me anymore now.I'm tired!!!!
To hang out with groups of friends
Receiving Presents
Eat lots of nice food
Praises
More freedom
Sunrise & Sunset
Scrolling on the beach
People with bad attitude
Too much pressure & stress
Isolation
BackStabber
Third party
Anti-social people
Gays
People who make use of me
Being betray
Stingy people
To be a very rich guy
To travel round the world
Faster graduate from RP
For a special person in my world
Have more knowledge
To be someone outstanding
Be perfect
Have lots of good friends
SQSS NPCC to become a gold unit one day
No more exams & test
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