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Sunday, April 20, 2008

Alright back to blogging...

Recently quite a number of things happen which really causes me to think alot as well as getting fed up.Sometime I'm really wondering what the hell are these ppl thinking & what do they treat me as.I organise a meeting as I think he might need some help & he say will come & plan together.

But then on the actual day just 1hr before the meeting time he say he is not coming.FINE!!! Then the rest of us help him to plan.The next day he call me to ask what we had plan & as usual I told him the detail.Guess what he say next??? He said "actually don't need to plan one just tell the other CIs the brief detail like time,date & venue can le".WTF!!! So if that is the case then in the first bloody place why you also agree to come for the meeting to plan together & after that you din appear.And when you dun come & thinks that there isn't a need to plan then why dun you tell us earlier.DO YOU THINK WE ARE DAMN F**KING FREE??? Just that planning causes us to plan until 9pm plus without eating dinner yet.So what do you treat us as??? We can just simply dun care & dun bother as since we are not the in-charge for the CI workshop.But its because we are from the same unit that is why we came to help.

What is worst when you yourself is the in-charge din even appear for the ATC meeting to explain the detail of the CI workshop on your own.So after all these things you still expect us to help you to clear all these shit & you just sit back & relax thinking that you are tired or busy.Do you think I'm not tired either as after school I still have to do things that are not related to me.Just because I always kept quiet does not means you can always take things for granted.

Everyone has a certain amount of limit they can take & you have already pushes mine to the limit already.Just push a little bit more of my limit & I can gurantee you that I will do something to make you disgrace in front of everyone.

As for yesterday ATC meeting,another thing that make me fed up is some inconsiderate ppl.Although the CC might be abit blur or unsure at sometimes,but then I think we should still give our basic respect by listening on what he wishes to say & not talking amoung yourself at one side or interrupting what he is saying when he is not done yet.Worst is when they brought in unrelevant topic & delay others time.

Then next the hong kah incident happen to me.Whereby my own unit CIs shoots me on my lesson plan & it was until someone says "see the own unit CIs fighting wif each other" then she stops ARRGH!!! Yes logical speaking there isn't any wrong for shooting.But lets face it to the fact of this reality world.Have you ever thought of how others will see us when as what they put it "own unit CIs fighting amoung themself".Are you trying to tell the others that we are not united or our CIs have problem working wif each other.Put it in a not very nice way would be are you trying to sabo your own ppl.Imagining when you work outside & during a meeting instead of support your teams stand,you ended up shooting your own team.Sound stupid & thinks no one will do that rite but there are really such ppl.Moreover the question she ask is perhaps she din really put much thought into it before she ask which I dun understand why she will ask that question.If there is really a need to say then perhaps you can whisper to me or tell me privately after the meeting rite.

Haiz........................................Why can't they think properly...

Randomly..

A friend told me that I'm always being surrounded by NPCC.Perhaps its time for you to move on.

Another friend told me that I should try to keep the fire buring on.But then I think no matter how long lasting can that piece of wood burn eventually it would also turn to a pile of ashes one day.Its just a matter of time.But no worries I won't leave the unit & that is my promise.

Jonathan blogged at 1:08 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...