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Monday, December 3, 2007

Currently blogging at JE library(dun feel like going to school but can't stay at home)...

Have lots & lots of reflection & thinking these days cos of a few things that have happen..And all these thing that have happen was also one of the reason why nowadays I'm more & more having bad attitude,bad temper & mood swinging.Its actually NPCC stuff anyway.Each time when there is a meeting with the NCOs or CIs,I would always feel more & more disappointed..Wanna know why??? When there is a meeting with the NCOs,you can see its always the same old bunch of NCOs that is doing the work & this would also mean there is also a same old bunch of idiot NCOs who does nothing & come for the meeting just for the sake of coming.Worst is that whatever I wish to see will always ended up with failure.For example there is once I called for a meeting with the NCOs only if they had agreed that they are free to come then they confirm it with me.So they confirm it with me & I came down that day.Guess what??? Only 1 NCOs came down & the rest was not free ARRGH...Another example would be I have called the NCOs that I wanna have a whole unit to fall in cos I wanna collect the funds for the Christmas Party as well as to form the team for Campcraft Competition 2008.Again guess what happen??? Only 7 cadets & some NCOs turn up.Din know that my unit now have become so "many" people le haiz..

As for the meeting with the CIs,there is always no lack of things to discuss but there is 1 problem.With each thing that is discuss or proposed,it seems to me like it is only me that is following up & clearing all this shit work.Starting from this year NDP,due to lack of manpower from the NCOs both Ka Suet & I became the parade marker because some CIs either cannot make it or dun wan to be the marker so fine I do it.SOW was initially not my job to check & discuss it with the NCOs but maybe because the CIs are "busy" so that is why I do it.Christmas Party on the other hand was assign to another CIs to follow up & again somehow or rather I ended up doing it as no one went to follow up & the NCOs called me up & check it with me.Campcraft Competition briefing for this year only allow "1 person" to attend & again it was Taiji lesson time & I ended up to be the one that went for the briefing.Even now setting a date & time with my OC for all CIs to meet up with her to settle the UOPA was again my job.I dun mind setting the date & time but what makes it difficult for me to do it is most of the CIs dun even reply the sms or takes a few hours/days later then reply they cannot make it.With all this dragging how am I going to set a "perfect" date & timing for everyone.And if you think that is all the problem then you are wrong.There is a Campcraft Competition team not even form yet & the deadline will be coming soon,the training dates for the Campcraft Competition not even out yet which the task was given long ago,an sec 1 Orientation proposal with yet anyone to follow up,planning for new posting for the NCOs with the coming back of the sec 4 after their N level result is out as well as planning for next year SOW not even starting yet.With so many stuff not settle yet but then there is not even a sign of urgency from any CIs to initial anything.Perhaps all of them are waiting for me to clear up all these shit again bah hiaz..Somehow got a feeling of washing my hands off from everything about the unit & really go take a good long break for myself but can I.Maybe can consider it after next year Campcraft Competition is over hahaz...

Anyway its counting down 15 days to Xiao Wei birthday,20 days to my birthday & 22 days to Ka Suet birthday.So friends of these people dun forgot about their birthday as its a torture for people who are born in december to wait for their birthday to come ya..bb

Jonathan blogged at 11:09 AM

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